A love of my own...

The new year is slowly approaching and I am left with the thoughts of what my new years resolution will be, what my New Years Motto is, and what I want in my life... my beliefs. I will also be turning 30 and I expected more out of my life by now. But life should not always be planned or rather i can not always be planned as I'm not in control of it all but God is. The past couple of years have been a learning experience for me. In and out of the matters of the heart and just trying to find peace.
A love of my own.... is all about the love i want in my life....A love that is infact mine and pure no infactuations, no question or doubt, but true love.
I want the person to be my best friend. I want to be able to communicate with him about everything in love. We will be able to trust each other, trust in our love. I believe that there is a such thing as the things i want and am looking for or really I want to find me. Patient... love is patient. I'm doing a 40 day challenge on love. The love dare, meant for couples but I'm doing it as an individual to challenge myself on love in general.

I believed that love would be easy it would be just out there to take and make mine. but as I see... there is love out there... all kinds of love, yes, love is easy, but to truly love unconditionally is hard. To have faith and understanding, and being kind can be hard. to treat your neighbor as yourself can infact be hard. To forgive is even harder... I have been in the position to forgive and I know for a fact that love unconditional is hard.

My New Year-> to love myself and in that I will be able to love others. To learn and know the true meaning of what love is. To find time to embrace each moment. To think not only with my heart, my actions, but with logic as well because love is blind. To have a best friend in love, and that best friend have faith. To have fulfillment of oneself first then seek it from others. To learn to trust. To truly forgive and seek forgivness if needed.

So far that's all I came up with. But I'm sure there is more. I just have a clear mind and heart and I'm ready to move forward with whatever God has in store for me.